Could there be a change in quantum physics be happening?

What if there's a shift happening right now that is literally changing particle physics that would lead to an unexpected result in bottom quarks? https://www.sciencenews.org/article/bottom-quarks-misbehave-lhc-experiment

Is there a revolution happening?

I read that magnetic storms can sometimes cause revolutions. I've noticed a trend in the news of shootings happening in shopping centres in Europe. It's terroristic. But what against? I concluded against the idea of consumerism, against capitalism. This is radical in its true definition. These shoppers are being assaulted because they were mindlessly wasting their money on things. I do feel a sadness for their innocent casualties, but I have an idea of what the possible reasoning for why these horrible acts are happening. I'm not endorsing it, but is this the year that marks a shift in our fundamental understanding of life on earth?

Scientists discover new pigment

Scientists in Oregon were experimenting with chemicals for electronic capabilities, but serendipitously find a beautiful, non-toxic blue colour labeled YInMn (yttrium, indium, and manganese) set for eventual commercial use (as household paint). (Posted June 29, 2016)
https://www.yahoo.com/beauty/scientists-have-discovered-a-stunning-new-shade-of-blue-172552219.html

CERN observes three new Tetraquark particles

http://www.sci-news.com/physics/cern-three-new-tetraquark-particles-04004.html
(I don't know too much about quarks and particles to outline this, but the graph is truly beautiful and we're achieving deeper understanding of particles and symmetry).(Posted July 6, 2016)

Pauli Exclusions

Another article explaining a previously theorized (1925) principle was displayed in full action. The principle was that fermions couldn't collide and turn at a 90 degree angle so there would be a dark halo after collisions of ultracold clouds of potassium-40 (40K). So there's a forbidden zone along the meridian of the collisions that particles couldn't go, and this team in Dunedin, New Zealand (Dr. Niels Kjærgaard from the University of Otago) managed to capture a picture of this collision and the halo and almost an imagined direction of particles outlined. (Posted July 11, 2016)

http://www.sci-news.com/physics/pauli-exclusion-key-principle-quantum-mechanics-04016.html

Science has made some super interesting breakthroughs recently

An article about using electron microscopes being used to map out electron orbitals in graphene and using irregularities to understand differences in electron behaviour. (Posted July 18, 2016;

The Humboldt-Universität zu Berlin, the Universität Ulm, and McMaster University in Canada also worked alongside the TU Wien on the study in a joint FWF-DFG project ("Towards orbital mapping", I543-N20) and a FWF Erwin-Schrödinger project ("EELS at interfaces", J3732-N27).)

http://phys.org/news/2016-07-glimpse-atom.html

An article on the possibility of there being an X-Shaped structure at the centre of the Milky Way Galaxy. This information (new infrared light from the centre of our galaxy, shaped as a peanut-like bulge of energy) has only been theorized but never quite seen before yet. There was data accumulated, but the Spanish researchers dub it inconsequential as of yet, but this will be groundwork on understanding the formation of our galaxy. Information was collected by NASA's WISE (Wide-field Infrared Survey Explorer) mission. (Posted July 20, 2016)

http://www.abc.net.au/news/2016-07-20/x-marks-the-centre-of-the-milky-way/7644944

An article on new regions discovered in new detailed research on brain mapping. 210 participants were studied with teams of engineers, neuroscientists and computer specialists. Prior to this study there were 83 known regions to the brain, but after studying a large variety to begin this mapping. The cerebral cortex was studied with every fold being mapped, tests done to see how every region was connected with fMRI machines. Every person was given speech and brain exercises to see what activates during what function being performed. The scientific team is viewing this as starting point to understanding the whole activity of brain tissue. (Other tests were done to see where myelination occurred within the brain tissue for sped up neural activity). There is much more data the team wants to acquire to understand the brain functions so neurosurgery can advance to less complicated outcomes. (Posted July 20, 2016) (US-based National Institutes of Health, which co-funded the research, published in the journal Nature.)

http://www.abc.net.au/news/2016-07-21/most-accurate-map-yet-of-human-brain-released-by-scientists/7647654?section=science




So within the week, within a few days of one another, humanity has made sudden leaps in our understanding of the universe at large. We knew there was a lot we didn't know, with our limited perspective and ability to decipher the vibrations around the universe at large. We just made a truly mind-blowing technological leap in the scientific frontier. There is no way we could suddenly just figure out new things on the micro and macro worlds among us. We are space and vibration held together by these tiny forces and then the larger space our tiny planet coasts along cosmicly has all of this energy that might explain how our cosmic cluster stays together. The idea of connectivity, and previously unheard of pieces, century-long shattering revelations of the universe at large. All of this has to be linked together. I feel like we'll make a large discovery with our total understanding of genetics soon.

An article about a metal that is the hardest known structure that is biocompatible. This discovery can make dental implants and other medical advances because bone can safely and firmly grow around it. It's also very pretty to look at, and I think I was able to figure out the chemical structure of this new substance Ti3Au. (Discovery took place in Rice University, Houston.) (Posted July 22, 2016)

An article based on a Chinese clinical trial release. Essentially, they're going to use a designed CRISPR Cal9 gene edited cell as treatment for lung cancer. They're starting with late start, not-small metastasized tumour lung cancer patients small doses of this treatment, where chemo and radiation therapy has been non-responsive and keep extensive care for abnormalities. The Chinese know there's risk of the cells changing other tissues that aren't cancerous and cause other issues, but they keenly feel confident in the study. (A team led by Lu You, an oncologist at Sichuan University’s West China Hospital in Chengdu. And Carl June, a clinical researcher in immunotherapy at the University of Pennsylvania in Philadelphia, commented throughout the article.) (Posted July 22, 2016)

So much to take in, to try and distract myself from myself. I feel dysphoric here. I shouldn't, but maybe it's my cousin Nevaeh's inquisitiveness that's triggering it. She's only seven. I saw her when she was a newborn and then had nothing to do with her. I saw her when she was five, but she doesn't really remember. She asked me who I was when I finally saw my family. I gave her a hug. This might be because of my dad, but I do see myself in her. She's constantly asking questions and telling me stories. I think she just needs someone to listen to her. She's also just as shy as I was when I was that age.She has a bright mind for that age, and a lot of potential if raised properly. I wish my [first] cousin Natasha was a better mum for her. But those are her choices. I'm glad her little one is in school, at least. I read to her tonight. Aww, she started adoring me instantly.

She asked me if I was a boy, in kind of disbelief. And I think she was trying to ask about it but didn't know how to phrase it properly and shied away. I will tell her, in my own way.

I'm tired of putting energy into my transition. I just want to exist, y'know? But I need to dedicate this time to reflect on my journey.

After writing that coming out letter, I've started getting closer to my family. Most prominently, this trip in BC. I don't want to discuss my visits with my father, but it was surreal to have him call me his son for the first time. He was amongst the first to know my feelings about transition, not that he remembered for the first three years. But, yes, this letter was written in January of this year, around the one year mark of being on testosterone. Everyone who responded, did so with acceptance. August was the first time I've seen any of them for two and a half years. And this is the first time in my life, I think, that I've really reached out to them.
   My cousin Darren has been battling cancer for a few years now, and he's only a year older than me. Despite the fact that he was a little hellion when we were kids, I now have a lot of respect for him, seeing what he goes through, first hand. And he was the first to respond to the letter. I spent a lot of time at his place when I was in Prince George. When he introduced me to his girlfriend, Julia, he had this smile on his face. I think he was proud to say I'm his cousin. My aunt told me that he said he was really happy I spent time with him.
   I got to talk to Darren's mum, too. I haven't always seen eye-to-eye with her, but speaking about my life in general has given her more of an idea to who I am than anything else I've said in my life to her. And despite the fact that almost everyone on that side of the family compared me to my dad, she was the first to say it's our differences that define me. And I really needed that, because I've been terrified of becoming my dad for so long. I'm more aware of what his lifestyle is like than ever before, but now I'm also aware of what I can do to avoid that kind of fate. I think that visit in PG was necessary to overcome that obstacle. Or make it more manageable than before.- Most of my family has had slip ups in names and pronouns, but the fact that they call me Merik and use male pronouns at all astounds me. I don't think I could have asked for a better first visit with them, as myself.

Although this isn't going to be in chronological order, I'll keep it simpler and group this together as it's still about my dad's side of the family and the other will be associated with my mum's side. I got to Kelowna today. My aunt is a spitting image of a female version of me with about two and a half decades  and probably many more years of drug use over me. It's a little uncanny. She also an wered my letter quickly and with love. I know my family loves me, but it's because I've been absent that I wasn't aware of how much.

Onto my mum's side of things. I saw her best friend for a few days. I told her about my transition last December. I spent those days chatting at night and vegging during the day. We went down the river which was excellent and mostly calming. She predominately calls me my birth name and pronouns are weird, but she's getting used to it. She is fifty, after all, and has known me since birth and my mum for twenty-five years. But she sees so much of my mum in me. And it was nice, to let myself feel feminine, especially since we both got our rags on the same day. We both felt like crap and did all of nothing and there was nothing wrong with it.

I went to Vernon on August 22nd and spent a lot of time with my mum's baby brother, also named Darren, and his wife Kim. There is so much more to the connection I have with them than could be expressed in a simple blog post, but we worked through a lot of stuff. They're now in full acceptance of me. I told them in January of 2012, and they didn't think I was ready then. I guess I wasn't, but I also couldn't have proven to them then. So much work has been done on myself since then, and they see it. Kim slipped into the pronouns and name almost instantly, naturally. Darren slipped up a few times, especially when he was first back from up north.